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Feb. 18th, 2006 | 08:17 pm
deleting this journal.
and making a new one. bye.
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fhakjfhajkfhfskji23127631278
Feb. 13th, 2006 | 03:46 pm
Life is so gotdam boring.
I have Nothing to wake up to in the mornings... everything is so meaningless.
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aw man, i shot Marvin in the face!
Jan. 20th, 2006 | 11:07 pm
went to gizelle's house with emma after some fun times at hillcrest mall.
the hillcrest part was lame but that's what gizelle and i do -- we go to hillcrest.
then we watched Pulp Fiction. it was good stuff !
I don't need you to tell me how fucking good my coffee is, okay? I'm the one who buys it. I know how good it is. When Bonnie goes shopping she buys SHIT. Me, I buy the gourmet expensive stuff because when I drink it I want to taste it. But you know what's on my mind right now? It AIN'T the coffee in my kitchen, it's the dead nigger in my garage.
Oh, Jimmie, don't even worry about that...
No, let me ask you a question. When you came pulling in here, did you see a sign out in front of my house that said Dead Nigger Storage?
Jimmie, you know I ain't seen no --
DID YOU see a sign out in front of my house that said Dead Nigger Storage?
[pause] No. I didn't.
You know WHY you didn't see that sign?
Why?
'Cause it ain't there, 'cause storing dead niggers ain't my fucking business, that's why!
songs with movie dialogues are love, and then you watch the movie and you're like WHOA!
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moo
Jan. 17th, 2006 | 09:35 pm
so kidsss,
i've officially decided to get my Septum pierced.
yes, i'm gonna do it sometimes soon,
but i have to talk 2 them first,
and if i don't like what they say
about my nose and stuff ,, i'll reconsider.
but for now,
it's final and i can't wait.
holy shit i cannot wait.
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(no subject)
Jan. 16th, 2006 | 06:38 pm
mood: ADD
got my 2nd semester schedule today,
thx to the nice lady,
it's looking pretty sweet. =D
also finished I Can't Tell You.
great book, made me angry a few times,
and i didn't really like the ending becuase i really
wish he'd ask her out.
i guess i like the convential
"and they lived happily ever afteR" ending
haha.
overall great read though, not cheesy at all.
makes me feel kinda 'doomed' when i know i'll
be stuck reading Walden next time.
done my english IOP, all i got is
french iop and english media proj left ,,
and some tests i don't really care about.
then comes the dreaded studying for exams period,
which i can't start early becuase of all these
gotdamn works they gave us. the library is gonna be
more packed than usual now and finding a spot will be harder
than ever. bummer.
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the ponies, Rebecca
Jan. 13th, 2006 | 10:30 pm
tomorrow is my last shift at MMMMUFFINS. it's been fun and all,
but you gotta do what you gotta do.
i'll miss the bank people...the hotties at the bank,, ;)
and the few cute boys who ever came there.
but whatev.
on a happier note WE GOT P!ATD TICKETSSS!!
they changed the venue to the docks, and now more tickets are on sale.
i'm very very exciteddd.
i want to get this thought out of my system into the open that i've had
for a long, long time. i feel like i will never find the right boy,
and i am pretty sure i'm right. i think that you gotta love yourself to love
someone else, or at least feel comfortable with yourself...if not then you're just
too shy and it never works out( not just talking about the physical part, you sickos)
becuz after all, both people gotta make the effort,
and if i make an effort, i am just fighting myself to open up. i don't consider myself a
pessimist, iam a realist. i like to imagine it all happening to me and being all
happy and wonderful, but deep down i know it won't,,and i think i need to stop
day dreaming about mister right and realize that it will never happen. and i just have to
accept it, really truly accept it and stop waiting around. that means i'll need to,
devote my attention to shopping, music, anything ,,,something that will help me deal with the
fact that, i will probably be single forever. meaning i won't ever "fall in love" ever.
this has been, by far, The lamest entry ever. and i'm not sure if it makes sense, but in my head it
does. i just need to take action and stop waiting for a boy. thank god for great films and shopping.
the weather is wonderful & exams are fast approaching. saaweet.
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gr11 brains were never made for calculus...
Jan. 11th, 2006 | 03:31 pm
mood: calm
i think it's really funny how when we have math tests, Mike doesn't leave any blanks, but i leave like half of the test blank,
but i still always end up getting a better mark than him.
lolz @ failing calc
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wake me up when this semester ends.
Jan. 9th, 2006 | 03:55 pm
mood: panicky
getting back to school work is a fucking bitch.
i can't concentrate even if my life depended on it. i could just sit in my room for hours and not do anything at all. it's so pathetic. i so wanna go to the mall right now and buy some CD's but i can't because i've got an essay to do and a math test to study for WHICH INEVITABLY I AM GONNA FAIL,,,, and in reality i probably won't get much done. bye.
my life is a horror movie.
The Semester From Hell.
The Curse of the Evil Calculus.
The Attack of The Evil English Teacher from Mars.
or why not simply just call it, 'IB'
i'm good.
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=(
Jan. 7th, 2006 | 08:05 pm
went to square one yesterday with oreet. it was a mission and a half. about an hour subway ride, and another hour after that on the bus, sheesh. it was pretty bored, because well, radek & oreet needed some alone time. so i just sat there drinking the most disgusting hot chocolate from Starbucks, never again . then Alex came along and gave me some ecstacy which i took because i was so freaking bored, i must say, they are a pretty boring bunch. well the ecstacy was very, very disapointing. first off, i didn't feel AAAAAnything, (shitty pills i geuss?, and i only took half) , but, when Oreet wouldnt leave to go to the bus terminal at nine LIKE SHE PROMISED, the tears just came out, i always get frustrated like this but never to the point of crying LOL. but yeah, they just poured out lol, and radek's face was making me laugh cuz he's so funny looking haha, and they kept looking at me and expecting me to trip out , they wouldn't believe me when i said I'M NOT HIGH. fucking idiots. Anyways, i drank alot the whole day, so it was funny because on the bus to the subway i really didn;t think i would make it, and it was the most painful, unpleasant feeling ever, trying not to pee when you REALLY REALLY REALLY have to go. lol
overall, fun times i GUESS, but the E was dissapointing, aughh.
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(no subject)
Jan. 5th, 2006 | 07:47 pm
mood: 
tired
Yesterday i went downtown with Tania & Alayna, twas fun, we walked around a bit and then went on a mission to find Rotate This since i've never been there before. it ended up being all the way on Queen&Bathurst and i had never ventured that far before (except once with oreet when we were feeling 'adventurous'). after getting the Silverstein tickets (!!! =D), we walked back because i had to get oreet at Eaton Center. after eating mcdonalds, which was very gross, i met up with oreet and tania and alayna had to leave. So then i had to walk back to like spadina and queen to get the industrial piercingg!!! (lots of walking). it didn't hurt THAT much, and the whole time i thought she was doing the first hole but she actually did one and then the other. anyway it hurt more after, and it still hurts, and i don't think i'll ever sleep on my left side again, lol, but it's great =) ,
earlier that morning i had a huuuuge fight with my mother and decided that i was not going to go home that night... anyway, we had to meet up with Joohyun sometime but we had alot of time to kill before that so we just walked around even more down yonge and stuff and went into random stores,, finally we got to joohyun's restaurant which is a super cute little japanese place, and her family owns it, and she was wearing this cute japanese kimono thingy lol, i was insanely hungry so i dragged oreet to timmies because joohyun had to finish work anyways, and i ended up eating two cookies, two danishes, and a chocolate milk, but that proved to be insufficient so i ended up getting a sub right after, god i am such a pig, but only with oreet, i don't know why ,,, i guess it;s because i usually eat nothing and then i have these random times where i can't stop being hungry...
after joohyun finished work we went into this restaurant place which was pretty cool and sat there drinking really sour grapefruit juice, we left at about 12 30 and at oreet's house went to bed at like 3, well i did anyways.
tomorrow we're going to square one to visit Radek, and i have absolutely no money.
it's pretty pointless to re tell daily events in this journal but i really don't wanna be doing my essay.
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this town is not good for psychedelic drugs.
Jan. 2nd, 2006 | 12:04 pm
well yesterday i went to oreet's house and we hung out with radek sergei and alex .. after that we watched Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas. and wow it is the one of the most fucked up movies i've ever seen. it was jokes though. " did you eat all this acid ? ...THAT'S RIGHT! ...i decided to take half of the acid first, but i spilled the rest on the sleeve of my red woolen shirt" , it was really weird, because the whole movie made absolutely no sense to me, and the whole time i was trying to figure out whether they were tripping out or it was actually happening to them. and it was all red and blue and stuff, to resemble the..trips they were on. it was funny cuz they were always on drugs. and i must say, johnny depp's voice in this movie is unforgettable, a classic, the 'root' of all our inside jokes with this movie. " oh god, did you eat all this acid? " wouldn't be half as funny if it wasn't for the voice.
i got pretty bored though cuz i didn;t understand what was going on. blame the ADD.
" you can always turn your back on a person, but never, turn your back on a drug. especially when it's waving a razor-sharp hunting knife in your eye. "
don't go near that elevator--that's just what they want us to do... trap us in a steel box and take us down to the basement.
with a bit of luck, his life was ruined forever. always thinking that just behind some narrow door in all of his favorite bars, men in red woolen shirts are getting incredible kicks from things he'll never know.
it's okay. he's just admiring the shape of your skull.
We had two bags of grass, seventy-five pellets of mescaline, five sheets of high-powered blotter acid, a saltshaker half-full of cocaine, and a whole galaxy of uppers, downers, laughers, screamers... Also, a quart of tequila, a quart of rum, a case of beer, a pint of raw ether, and two dozen amyls. Not that we needed all that for the trip, but once you get into a serious drug collection, the tendency is to push it as far as you can. The only thing that really worried me was the ether. There is nothing in the world more helpless and irresponsible and depraved than a man in the depths of an ether binge, and I knew we'd get into that rotten stuff pretty soon.
Strange memories on this nervous night in Las Vegas. Five years later? Six? It seems like a lifetime, or at least a main era---the kind of peak that never comes again. San Francisco in the middle sixties was a very special time and place to be a part of. Maybe it meant something. Maybe not, in the long run, but no explanation, no mix of words or music or memories can touch that sense of knowing that you were there and alive in that corner of time and the world. Whatever it meant.
johnny depp is amazing.
'
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series of unfortunate events..
Dec. 27th, 2005 | 10:50 am
so..
unity ticket : 24 $
glowsticks : 6 $
coat check : 2.50 $
medicine for cold after waiting in line for 1.5 hours in a skirt & stilletos : 10 - 40 $ ?
cab home : 70 $
seeing lovely old & new friends again : .........................
i really wish i could say 'priceless' , that would make it all dandy, huh ? but no, it was definitely not priceless, for fuck's sake. sure everything would be alot more convenient if my curfew wasn't 2, but in this case, that doesn't really matter because i was ready to leave before i even got inside the club. from a promoter's perspective, it was amazing because there were like 12 trillion people there and they probably made like 47349284932 and a half dollars in like 12 minutes, but for me it SUCKED. waiting in line was bad enough, and even though when we got in we still had good timing for everything and coat check worked out marvellously, AND we met andrew in line, but the club was rammed, slammed and jammed to di maxxx and we almost died on the stairs. i mean getting from one room to the other was a mission all on it's own. and finding a space to dance was ridiculously hard. i hate over promoted events, and i'm not gonna go clubbing for a very veyr veyr long time, maybe until summer, when it's warm enough to stand in line and shit . moral of the story is, never stop hanging out with your promoter friends because THEY WILL HELP YOU OUT!! and make friends with as many deejays as possible, or else stand in line for hours and GET FUCKED.
but i did see anton and mickey and that was pretty nice. overall though, waste of money, time, and make up.
incidentally, i ate like half an ecstacy pill or so and it didn't do shit, it was a bad pill though,
but i couldn't sleep all night and i got like cleaning products in my stomach. i also swallowed some glowstick juice. have a nice day.
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merry xmas all.
Dec. 24th, 2005 | 08:44 pm
mood: tired
music: the academy is
i`m done my 4 straight days of work. and i am soooo sick! i almost died today, but two advils makes it all better + a good sleep ^_^ .
my manager gave me 25 $ gift certificate therefore expensive mascara = 10 bucks =)))
and i really don't care about what my parents got me.
jess gave me thE nicest pair of juicy couture knee sox and i got a shitload of fobby pencils from everyone. (ha ha)
and i got my mother a nice gift and i really hope she likes it.
i also put nails in my ears (LOL!; thx alayna) and i am going to stretch them again soon. they're looking pretty good and it was a piece of cake.
iam sooo excited for unity ,,,the only thing is i'd rather go to a rave than unity but whatever :(:( ,
and tuesday we're going downtown to do some shopping. except i forgot what i was gonna buy .. oh yeah i`m gonna get the industrial piercing. that's all.
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buh hum bug
Dec. 19th, 2005 | 03:38 pm
my weekend was sucky considering that i had work on friday & saturday night,
but on saturday me and hayley chilled at Country Style for a bit, and that was fun.
then on sunday i wrote The worst essay of my life, and it happened to be my CPT. dandy.
this week my manager is making me work wed thurs fri & sat. whatan ass.
i am definitely quitting fucking MMMMUFFINS.
but seriosly, we are so anxious for the start of second semester. it will be like a new life, i hope, a beginning to a new, normal life. i like to call grade 10 and this semester "the lost years", because in all honestly, this semester and most of grade 10 has been the most depressing chapter in my life, and i sure hope things will improve. February first or something i hope to get that monroe piercing which should be tons of fun, and the p!atd show is on feb 2, so that looks like a very nice start to second semester. plus there's things like semi and another silverstein show to look forward to ,,,and of course high marks( i hope ). the only thing i've got to worry about is mean people, but even that doesn't scare me because everyone in my school apart from my friends is a fucking loser.
incidentally, i got my unity tickets and i'm pretty stoked. i am gonna go to get my hair cut now, see ya!'
ps: pete wentz, i LOVE YOU, I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU PETE WENTZ.
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lolz lolz lolz
Dec. 14th, 2005 | 03:10 pm
mood: insane ?
LOLZ @ all the freaking english work we have!!! hahahahahahahahahahha, oh man,,
XD
i gotta say, i don't fancy the christmas break too much because of all the work we've got FOR ENGLISH AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH , and plus exams to study for. but as much as i'd love to stay home the whole 2 weeks and study my brains out, i cannot. my ADD won't let me. ( and believe me, i wouldn't mind giving up my whole social life just to pass calculus )
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paul frank IS your friend.
Dec. 10th, 2005 | 10:23 pm
went to vaughan mills today with oreet.
and i bought this :
the skirt and those black tighs thingys i mean.
it's fab. what an outfit.
i also got a pair of jeans (WOW!),
it has a been exactly a year since i bought jeans. last pair i bought was guido&mary's about
a year ago. so, wow.
notes to self for xmas :
> get Jess a present
> give bro 20$
> get mother flowers and bday/xmas present
> unity tickets & p!atd tickets !!
this watch is amazing, it`s my dream watch. it's Paul Frank Calculator watch. it says ' Paul frank is your friend ' somewhere on the wristband. the buttons spell p a u l f r a n k. it's got a calculator, it's got an alarm clock, it's an in yo face badass paul frank watch, and i'm gonna get it. iam!iam!iam! [ this watch allows you to not only be The coolest kid in school, but cooler than the fobs. hong kong ain't got nuthin on me, this watch simply PWNZ. ]
> you, your mom, your friends, your car, hk, the planet, the galaxy, the next galaxy too. too bad you can only get it online =(
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Dec. 9th, 2005 | 11:19 pm
had a bad week, & the weekend doesn't look too promosing either.
although hanging out with anton, katerina, radek & oreet was super fun.
i love anton and all them, and i love getting rides from vlad. he's so nice.
i had my first full cigarrette today ( i know i am so lame for writing this )
it made me dizzy & i most likely won't do it again cuz it's kinda gross. i don't know how get you get addicted because it's not something you'd wanna do again. that is all.
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time to dance
Dec. 5th, 2005 | 07:23 pm
math portfolio is due Monday now,
let`s partaaay! XD
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Dec. 2nd, 2005 | 11:27 pm
today was cool i guess. had no idea what to do at first cuz no one could go out. but finally jason and i decided to meet up at hillcrest and see what 2 do from there. so we walked around, ate some cookies and shit, then decided we'd go downtown. we then met kheed at eaton's and he gave us some free chron (WOW!) then we went to Champ's and jason tried to find some shoes, we were there for about 40 minutes cuz Jason is a girl when it comes to shopping ;), and i found that there's a pair of converse that are totally nicer than mine (same color but pink and lime green stripes on the sole wtfucxxx) so that made me pretty sad and i hate mines now. we then met up with Jason's friend Tom who was pretty cool, we then went to The Friendly Stranger to buy some papers/pipe. they decided to buy some magnetic pipe and it was pretty cool i guess although the papers made with "love, smiles, and sunshines" looked much more appealing to me ;). the pipe was pretty good but once again, i couldn't feel shit. honestly, i get more high off ritalin, pretty pathetic. but we almost got booked, cuz we were in this super sketchy corner and it looked like we were doing some limes, and a policeman came by, we pretended we were thirteen and were waiting for our ride, thank god he wasn;t a prick. we walked more on queen and i tried on some shoes, then we went to some cafe to eat some crepes, and they were okay. and then i went home. that is all.
i am pretty pissed off i didn't get to see fftl and i was even on queen street! i was almost ready to kill any scene kid i saw tonight becuz i knew they were all going there =(
ps: i am so shocked by kheed. O_O
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medium fetus coming right up...
Dec. 1st, 2005 | 10:59 pm
mood: tired
went to see Silverstein at the pheonix last night with Sydney.
amazingly super duper incredible ? YES!
favorite band ?? YUUUUUUUP.
must go to their next show in Feb.
ps: weed just isn't my thing.
pps: silverstein was just sososososo good!
ppps: silverstein live > everything & everyone
=)
see ya!